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爱玲转发给我的一篇文章。。

有一支西方的考察隊深入非洲腹地考察，

請了當地部落的土著人做背伕和嚮導，由於時間緊，需趕路，

而這些土著人很吃苦耐勞，背著幾十公斤的裝備物資依然健步如飛，

一連三天考察隊都很順利地按計劃行進，大家都很開心。

可是第四天早上，考察隊準備出發的時候，

土著人們都在休息不走了，好說歹說就是不願出發。

隊員們很奇怪，這幾天大家相處得很好啊，

是不小心觸犯了他們還是要坐地加錢？

這時，土著人的頭領解釋道，

按照他們的傳統，如果連續三天趕路，第四天必須停下來休息一天，

以免我們的靈魂趕不上我們的腳步。

這個現代人也許看來很難理解的解釋，讓我很受觸動。

我們的生活太忙碌了，工作和生活的壓力讓我們日復一日地在趕路，

以至於我們很少停下來思考一下，就不斷地被很多東西推著走，

或者追逐著眼前的東西而去，

而我們的靈魂早已落後在我們匆匆趕路的身影後面無影無蹤。

沒有了自己我們的生活就交給了外物去控制。

又到了一周，我們是不是也放緩腳步，等一等我們的靈魂？

~~~忙~~~

如同… ”心”己“亡”

也如同….一個人沒了靈魂

那一天，我摇动所有的经桶，不为超度，只为触摸你的指尖；
　　那一年，在山路匍匐，不为觐见，只为贴着你的温暖；
　　那一次次的转山，不为修来世，只为途中与你相见。
　　——沧央嘉措

惊讶的，这么深情的一页诗，竟然出自神圣不可侵犯，与红尘绝缘的西藏活佛。谁属无情？

要当动物学家吗，一直在写壁虎。

龙哥在问，dydy, when are you going to update your blog? I am still
reading the lizard romantica lo…

呵呵，阿龙哥，我还是在写壁虎啊，不过现在不再是壁虎浪漫史，只是随性的涂乌。

没法子，那天晚上在埋头苦读《鬼吹灯之云南虫谷》的时候，突如其来的一阵汤匙搅动声，从梳妆台处传来，把我吓了一大跳。想着遮龙山那半人半虫的怪婴，嘴部裂成粉红色的四瓣，里面长满反锯齿形倒刺，不寒而栗。犹疑了一阵子后，壮着胆走过去看，原来肥大的壁虎先生（抑或是女士？）卷在杯子里舔着汤匙。一见到人，忙不迭的夹着尾巴逃走。

想来，和壁虎也蛮有缘的。旧男友家住着一大票的壁虎。善心的家人觉得壁虎是“益虫“吧，任由它们在家里自由进出。傍晚六七时，半明半昧的时刻，
着亮了客厅的“原子灯“，引来水虫们飞蛾扑火，壁虎们也开饭了，一家大小男女老少，
争先恐后得狩猎吞噬着昆虫大餐。“原子灯“德强光把壁虎的生体照耀得像透明的瓷器，内里脉络清晰可见，我似乎看见
水虫被长卷舌卷进壁虎口里成了黑色的一点，接着循着咽喉肠子咽进肚子里。

当别人都看着电视，我却只顾着看墙上的残酷屠杀，精彩激烈得很。细数一下，墙壁上不下十余只壁虎，个个白白胖胖，
肥头得意的爆发户像。偶尔也上演自相残杀的局面。大壁虎欺负小壁虎，把它赶到角落，不让它分一杯羹。自古弱肉强食，是大自然的定律。我们又何尝不是弱肉强食？只是在文明的包装下，竞争速度相对的缓慢，我们就像泡在锅里头的田鸡，被人用冷水烹煮。开始时还是舒舒服服的没什么感觉。锅水慢慢加温，我们越发的舒服写意。等到魂归天国时，方才知晓这是个害命的东西。

有一天当我从中收入阶级，被通货膨胀慢慢的烹煮，渐渐沦落到M型社会的谷底，或可考虑烧水自杀？：P

遇见它那一晚，我其实是想到厨房找宵夜吃。我亮了灯，看见在洗碗盘旁边的“逋物网”。好奇，三角开口，长形的纸盒，干嘛用的？探头往开口处望进去，我看见了它。
象牙色完美无瑕的身子，脸孔透着一抹粉红。真漂亮，我惊叹。年轻的壁虎？不像，身子不短哦。大眼睛瞪得老大的，内里写满了的惊慌。软软的身子，无助的瘫在强力粘纸上，动弹不得，
脸颊鼓胀鼓胀的，可怜的家伙怕的心跳喘气不已。

打量一下“逋物网”的造型，心顿时一沉。如果硬把它给扯离粘纸，它必肠穿肚烂，就算不死，也离死期不远了。哀伤，我救不了你了，心里默默嘀咕。不忍再多看它一眼，把灯关了
立刻离开。带着泪花回到房间，拨通手机里的快速连结一号，另一端传来了我熟悉的声音。我哽咽，“楼下厨房。。有一只壁虎粘在强力粘纸上。。。。“ “很可怜是吗？我明白。
我也蛮喜欢壁虎这动物，吃蚊子嘛。不像蟑螂，抵死的,死多多也没关系.不过啊,这壁虎有时也把我弄得很生气,到处拉粪!”眼泪已悄悄的滑下脸颊,一种被明白的释然.

所以那么的爱你.

  Sometimes, I really feel grateful to the technology.. now that we have www to surf, friendster, meebo, blog, forwarded emails tellings us news so fast, or articles so meaningful… if only Sir Tim Berner-Lee would have more selfish and monetary oriented, or more "Chinese" .. (sorry.. don’t mean to be mean to Chinese folks, as I am a Chinese too myself), we won’t be having this robust www nowadays..

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This happened in Japan ….

In order to renovate the house, someone in Japan breaks open the wall.

Japanese houses normally have a hollow space between the wooden walls.

When tearing down the walls, he found that there was a lizard stuck there because a nail from outside hammered into one of its feet.

He sees this, feels pity, and at the same time curious, as when he checked the nail, it was nailed 10 years ago when the house was first built.. !

What happened?

The lizard has survived in such position for 10 years!!!!!!!!!!

In a dark wall partition for 10 years without moving, it is impossible and mind-boggling.

Then he wondered how this lizard survived for 10 years! Without moving a single step–since its foot was nailed!

So he stopped his work and observed the lizard, what it has been doing, and what and how it has been eating.

Later, not knowing from where it came appears another lizard, with food in its mouth.

Ah! He was stunned and touched deeply.

For the lizard that was stuck by nail; another lizard has been feeding it for the past 10 years…

Imagine? It has been doing that untiringly for 10 long years, without
giving up hope on its partner. Think, will u do that to your partner?

Think that will you do it to your Mom, who brought you after a big
struggle of nine long months?

Or at least to your Dad, Friends, Co-workers, brothers and Sisters?

Imagine what a small creature can do that a creature blessed with a brilliant mind can’t.

As information and communication technology advances, our access to information becomes faster and faster.

But the distance between human beings . .. . is it getting closer as well?

Please never abandon your loved ones.

Never Say U R Busy When They Really Need You…

You May Have The Entire World At Your Feet……

But You Might Be The Only World To Them….

A Moment of negligence might break the very heart which loves you thru all odds….

Before you say something just remember. It takes a moment to Break but an entire life to make…

To Live Use Heart and to Survive use Brains.

Then Life would be a paradise Unfurling only Love Joy and
Happiness….

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  I am sooo touched.. I read it quite some times ago.. again someone forwarded this to me.. and still, I am touched.. so I decided to post it up here..

  Come to think of it.. lizard has another capability. They can break their tails in time of danger.. Cut the pain, and save yourself, when you are vulnerable, hurted, in threat, or suspision of danger of any kind, anything that will, or going to hurt you.. wow.. you know what, that is an amazing capability. Can homo sapien do that? No we can’t.. what a small creature capable of and a brilliant mind can’t again..

  And thus, I am here now declare, lizard is a far more advanced creature than homo sapien!

  I just wanna have my heart removed before it is smashed again…

I have an interesting discussion with my buddy…

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It happened some times back, I wanna post it up but too bad I don’t have access to the net that time. The topic just came out from nowhere .. ( you have got to ask her how she came up with this funny topic, probably she will tell you: Hey, that is the latest topic of discussion in Cleo!)

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What would you like to do most with your guy?

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Don’t be narrow minded, it can be anything but sex. (ehem, if all you can think of is sex, sorry to say but you are just too lack of creativity!) (but throw this question to any guy, you get only one answer: sex, or make love or any of its equivalent)

We came up with ideas quite similar… okay.. actually it is my buddy that came up with her original ideas first, and I seconded, and added more details…

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Travel
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yeahh… go travelling with some one you love is trully amazing.. go to some places that both of you never visit before, and explore it together.. try exortic food (not me, I don’t eat weirs stuffs).. and most importantly, it’s the time when all you have is him, and all he has is you. It brings you two closest instantly…  hmm… it would be romantic.

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Hangout
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Maybe this just apply to us both, since we are kind of introvert, and extrovert at the same time. We want our guy to be able to hangout in bookstore for hours with us,  and bury with books, and yet can make the whole table laugh at his joke in party. hmm… tough… where to get this type of guys?  Probably when men set the standard that gf should be able to "go in kitchen and come out living room", we set the equivalent with "hangout long hours in bookstore and come out and impress everybody with your humor". Sense of humor, is important in a relationship. It adds sparks and chase away dullness, a friend said. But I do believe sense of humor is innate. Anyway, I added some more thing here. I wish my guy can write beautiful sentences, or at least, knowing to appreciate them if I happened to write him some.

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Buddy: nowadays I would just close the chat window when first sentence from the other side is of bad grammer, or just asl!

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Sex on the beach
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okay! I need to clarify, this is not my idea. I actually have my jaw falls to the ground when I heard it. What is it so important???

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Buddy said: well, to me it is important! Don’t you think this is soooooo romantic? On the beach with fine white sand, cooling sea breeze, soothing wave sound, and the starry sky…

Me: What if someone see?…

Buddy: of course find la some beach with more privacy!

Me: …… what if sand got into the place????

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Las but not least, mosquitoes bite you ar!

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Most of the times, I would just wish to spend the sluggish rainy sunday afternoon at home cuddling with my guy on the sofa and watch Sex and the City or CSI.

Changes, has been too frequent in my life these few years.

I stayed 4 years in the same company, and changed 4 jobs within 12 months; my heart was smashed, and I smashed someone’s too; one moment I was nagging about me being unemployed, the next moment I was on the way flying to US for my new job; I just found a new place to stay, and now I need to move again; I just discovered that Friday 7.30 pm Sri Maju bus depart from PG for Ipoh without stopping at Jeti, and now I start thinking how jam it is from Subang to Midvalley; I booked Sandy that we will attend Kim Hoon’s wedding dinner together at Kedah, and not going to ah Lun’s; and now I have to give up Kim Hoon’s and attending ah Lun’s at KL. When I think I can take a break and catch my breathe, something unpredictable will happen. Good or bad, hard to say..

I can only say nature has its courses. Human intervention is just a little part of it. What I can do, is to do my best in everything, consider all the pros and cons that I can think of, avoid making hasty decisions. At least, there still something I can do, so I don’t feel totally out of control, or helpless… I feel like clutching on rotten log in swift current… well, at least there is a log..

  Perhaps I complain too much. God has been merciful to me.   The road to destination is painful, and almost unbearable.. but, I would still able to walk all the way, and reach there. And dear friends, I won’t be here without your support. I owe you a big hug.. ^_^

  The yummy tough cookie will go on…

Written by my dearie Jovie.. I read with teary eyes..

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There are those times when I lack words, no matter how deeply I search for them. Maybe I come up for air with a few in my grasp, but they fall short of the sky when flung high. Unlike those stars thrown by your eyes that I know to be gleaming, miles away.

However short of words I may be, I never find myself lacking thoughts for you. I just wish I could share them all, and share those dreams that I have given away. With you.

Sleep easy angel, you rest on my dreams as they rest on you. And I miss you.

  Most of my friends know that my bf has a condo in Putra Place PG. We actually obtained the OC December 06, but only finalised the interior designer and also the renovation design after chinese new year 07.

  While waiting for the renovation, we did the painting of the house ourselves, and take our sweet time to shop for furnitures, accessaries, neccesities, eletrical goods, decor… etc. The renovation took about 2 months, which ended around April 07. But we still continue to take our snail pace to do shoppings… hehe… it is until recently that I can say we have eventually bought most of the things for the house, with still 1-2 pieces still under survey. We can almost celebrate one year anniversary on house reno and decor… haha…

  Many of my good friends have visited my new house. Jovell, Jo, Da-Niu & S26 kid, ah Wong, Jeremy & Beau-ti-ful & baby Jerelin, Roy & his Moon/Sunshine, bf’s colls, cousin bro Jeff and friend Kamar.. am so glab that you guys like the house.. (well, I doubted if you dare to say not nice! )  (I’ll throw you out of my windy balcony! Let you swim from the big long kang to Pulau Jerejak.) In fact, Jeremy’s beautiful house is my role-model. So special thanks to Beau-ti-ful for letting me know the tricks and idea before my renovation.

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The Renovation

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Talking about the renovation, since it is a tiny 1000 sq feets condo, we are very careful not to make the place too crowded. We were then decided to have interior designer to custom make the master bedroom warbdrobe, dry & wet kitchen cabinets and shoe+storage cabinets. This would fully utilise the space compare to buying ready-made.

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Wet kitchen front and side view.

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Master bedroom wardrobe & entrance’s shoe+storage cabinet.

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Dry kitchen cabinet and dining…. the before and after I added all the junks and also the fridge. Shouldn’t have taken the picture in warm light, look so hot.

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The laundry & ironing corner, whole thing got it from Ikea.

The black and white cabinet we bought it from Mekio, Gurney Plaza. Bf likes it a lot coz he can display his favourite collections there.

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Our beautiful living room (hehe..)… the before and after we put in all the furnitures….

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My romantic dressing table. Wanna have a simple and not so bulky, not so space-taking one. Everything from Ikea… hehe…  I even bought a bar stool to match with it.

The other photo, taken from siting on bar stool looking towards living room, of course, that’s the living room before furniture.

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Furniture Shopping

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There are quite many moments of head cracking when it comes to making decision. Beautiful vs $$, and size.. does matter… for tiny house.

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We were wondering should we get the wooden divider, or the bamboo blind divider. Wooden divider (left) costs RM180. Bamboo blind one (right) RM499 from Mekio. In the end, we chose the bamboo one. Why, coz I like that better, more special.

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Some times I’m too used to shopping in Jaya Jusco, I didn’t realise that Pakson also got many nice thing. These are the beautiful pots/vases I saw in Pakson Ipoh. All reduced to clear with 70% discount. I bough one in green colour with Rm10, it actually look like green apple skin (so amazing, it just plastic u know), and you can see it’s now being displayed on the black and white cabinet in my house. Scroll up and look more careful and you will find it!

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Pakson had this beautiful dining display! I was attracted immediately and at the end, bought the orange table cloth, wanna make my dining table as attractive. Who knows the orangy does not goes well with my dining table..:(. ……………………………………………………………………..

This thing har… RM300+ ee… I thot can add some greenery to the house without me having to water them (I plant cactus also die one). But expensive! ( I didn’t buy it)

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I like the Giraffe so much! whole thing is wooden.. so artistic.. me and bf at first wanna make the house theme = art galery. hehe… anyway, I didn’t buy it la.. even the smallest one costs RM200+.

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From Pakson again, wanted to put on my kitchen window to add feel of softness. Actually I prefer the checked one, but they were all sold out due to Hari Raya, so no choice I only able to get the plain one. I still haven’t put it up yet.

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Am still preparing the guest room. Will post it here later when I got it ready……

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Interior Design reference

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Computer freak of course like to do research from internet. Here are some beautiful interior photos I use as reference. (click on the image to open up the picture)

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答案是骰（tou2)子。

意外吗？
为什么是赌博用的骰子？那俗气的骰子。

知道红豆的含义吗？红豆又称相思豆。古时候的骰子嵌的是红豆， 来显示点数。

有一说： 玲珑骰子嵌红豆，入骨相思知不知。

入骨相思，那么深切的思念，深得让人心痛。

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